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25 Questions After It Happened

What sexual assault made me wonder

Julia Appa
2 min readDec 9, 2021
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  1. Has it been my fault?
  2. Why did he do this to me?
  3. Why did I trust him?
  4. Will people believe me?
  5. How do I go on and pretend that I am okay?
  6. Is it my fate to be disrespected and used by men?
  7. Could I have seen this coming?
  8. Why didn’t he stop?
  9. Does he feel bad for what he did?
  10. Will he do it again?
  11. It could have been way worse, right?
  12. When will my body feel like it is mine again?
  13. Should I call myself a victim of sexual assault or a survivor? Neither?
  14. Will I be able to get aroused and enjoy sex again?
  15. How much of my story should I share?
  16. Will people blame me for what happened?
  17. Will I stop blaming myself?
  18. Will he ever understand what he did and the extent to which he violated my body and my soul?
  19. Would this have happened if I had stronger boundaries?
  20. Why wasn’t it enough to say “No”? Did he not care?
  21. Did he truly think I wanted this?
  22. How do I trust men again?
  23. Do I need to forgive him? Do I want to? Can I?
  24. Will this be the last time that I say “Me too”?
  25. Who is gonna be the next one who will say it?

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Julia Appa
Julia Appa

Written by Julia Appa

Just a 23-year-old who’s obsessed with writing. Instagram: juliaminus_romeo

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